What am I missing?

Going over all the things in my life
that I tried to correct but I have
neglected myself and did everything for
everyone else. All the wrong reasons
made too many mistakes along the way
now paying for the ones that still breathe
and exist with my every waking moment.

What am I missing?
Looking for excitement and thrills
but all the hills have become to hard for me
to climb and the expanse of all my dreams
have faded to black and fears rear is ugly
head and knock on my door all the time.
I am always searching but never finding
what I want.

What am I missing?
Laughter to shut out the pain
to drive away the rain and clear out
the clouds so I can see the sunny day.
To pave my way to something new
trying hard to find out what it is that I want to do.
Thought I had my answer but confused
and dazed at times not really sure if this is what
I truly want.

What am I missing?
Apparently there is nothing just an woman wanting
the world and know she cannot have it.
So am I really missing anything?

Copyright 2008 Belinda Diane Willis